STEP 124 TODAY I WILL NOT PRETEND I AM HAPPY.

You do not need to pretend that you are happy, for this will only mask a sense of self-pity, compound your confusion and deepen your dilemma. Today be yourself, but be self-observant, keeping in mind that Knowledge is with you as you vacillate to and from, towards and away from Knowledge itself. Because Knowledge does not vacillate, it is a source of certainty, consistency and stability for you. Because it is unafraid of the world, it is a source of fearlessness for you. You are not pitiful, so you need not pretend.

你不需要假装自己很快乐，因为这只会掩盖你的自怜，加剧你的困惑，加深你的困境。今天，你要做你自己，但要自我观察，牢记当你摇摆不定地走向或远离内识时，内识与你同在。因为内识不会摇摆不定，所以它是你确定性、一致性和稳定性的来源。因为它不惧怕世界，所以它是你无畏的来源。你并不可怜，所以无需伪装。

Do not pretend to be happy today, for he or she who is truly satisfied may cast any expression upon the world, but within their expression will be the power of Knowledge. This is what is most important. Knowledge is not a form of behavior. It is an intense experience of life. Therefore, do not attempt to persuade yourself or others with a demonstration of behavior, for this is unnecessary.

今天，不要假装快乐，因为真实满足的人可以向世界投射任何表情，但在他们的表情中将蕴含着内识的力量。这才是最重要的。内识不是一种行为方式。它是一种强烈的生命体验。因此，不要试图用行为表现来说服自己或他人，因为这是没有必要的。

Repeat this statement upon the hour and feel its power and its gift of freedom. Allow yourself to be exactly as you are today. In your two deep meditation practices, allow yourself to enter stillness, for when you are not trying to be someone, you may have the luxury of stillness, which is the luxury of love.

每时每刻重复这句话，感受它的力量和自由的礼物。允许自己做今天的自己。在你的两次深度冥想练习中，允许自己进入静止状态，因为当你不试图成为某个人时，你可以奢侈地享受静止，这是爱的奢侈。

Practice 124: Two 30-minute practice periods. Hourly practice.

练习 124： 两个 30 分钟的练习时段。每小时练习一次。