STEP 81 I WILL NOT DECEIVE MYSELF TODAY.

Upon the hour practice making this statement and feeling its impact. Strengthen your commitment to Knowledge. Do not fall into the apparent ease of self-deception. Do not be comfortable merely with assumptions or the beliefs of others. Do not accept generalities as truth. Do not accept appearances as representative of the reality of another. Do not accept the mere appearance of yourself. Doing these things demonstrates that you do not value yourself or your life and that you are too indolent to carry forth effort on your own behalf.

一小时后，练习说这句话，感受它的影响。加强你对内识的承诺。不要轻易陷入自欺。不要仅仅满足于假设或他人的信念。不要把泛泛之谈当作真理。不以表象代表他人的真实。不要只接受自己的表象。做这些事表明，你不重视自己或自己的生命，你太懒惰，无法为自己付出努力。

You must enter uncertainty to find Knowledge. What does this mean? It simply means you are giving up false assumptions, self-comforting ideas and the luxury of selfcondemnation. Why is self-condemnation a luxury? Because it is easy and does not require you to examine the truth. You accept it because it is acceptable in this world, and it gives you a great deal to talk about with your friends. It evokes sympathy. Therefore, it is easy and weak.

你必须进入不确定性，才能找到内识。这意味着什么？简单地说，就是你要放弃错误的假设、自我安慰的想法和自我谴责的奢望。为什么自我谴责是一种奢侈？因为它很容易，不需要你去审视真理。你接受它是因为在这个世界上它是可以被接受的，而且它还能让你和朋友们有很多话题可以聊。它能唤起同情。因此，它既简单又脆弱。

Do not deceive yourself today. Allow yourself to examine the mystery and the truth of your life. Upon the hour today repeat today’s idea and feel what it means. Also today, in two longer practice periods, repeat the statement and then dedicate yourself to stillness and receptivity. By now, you are beginning to learn how to prepare yourself for stillness—using your breath, concentrating your mind, relinquishing thoughts and reminding yourself that you are worthy of such an effort. Remind yourself of the goal that you are attempting to reach. Do not deceive yourself today. Do not give in to what is easy and painful.

今天，不要欺骗自己。让自己审视生命的神秘和真理。今天的每一小时，重复今天的想法，感受它的含义。同样在今天，在两个较长的练习时间里，重复这句话，然后专注于静心和接受。现在，你已经开始学习如何为静止做好准备——运用呼吸、集中精神、放弃杂念，并提醒自己，你值得付出这样的努力。提醒自己要达到的目标。今天不要欺骗自己。不要屈服于容易和痛苦的事物。

Practice 81: Two 30-minute practice periods. Hourly practice.

练习 81： 两个 30 分钟练习时段。每小时练习一次。